Tuesday, February 1, 2011

1st of February resolutions

I'm not the one who believes in the whole new years resolution thing; if there's something you want to change about oneself, why wait for some arbitrary number on the calender to change? Unfortunately, I feel like this way of thinking has left me pretty unmotivated to do any sort change by always thinking pessimistically of illogical things like that. But after neeting for a little while, the least I can do is somewhat try to use my time productively, to work towards those silly weaboo dreams of mine like teaching english in Japan or doing something there (so I can actually go to some arcades and game centers that aren't crap, as well as embracing all the things of glorious nihonese culture, and be closer to all sorts of /jp/ goods and merchandise, just like in my japanese animes). But first things first, there's some crap I should deal with such as:
  • Getting some sort of job, all I need is roughly $450/mo for rent/food to survive at the bare minimum. This will no doubt be the hardest task of them all
  • Study Japanese seriously again, did about a year of it in community college, review all that and continue on my own.
  • Get a BA/BS degree in SOMETHING (it does not matter what, its all bullshit) as its required for pretty much any serious gig over there, however I'm butthurt from uni as some of you may know so I won't do this immediately.
Basically dots 1 and 2 are what I want to focus on immediately, and all this will take some serious work. Working hard towards anything not video-game related is extremely difficult for me, so I don't know how much success I'll have. It really is hard to change from my hikkikomori ways, and no Misaki-chan will knock on my door to try to cure those ways so I'm on my own. Especially with Japanese, I feel ashamed for being so monolingual, but every time I try to seriously start up studying it again, I'll do it for a few hours for the day, and then never touch it again for months. And getting a job is pretty hard as fuck considering the shitty economy and all, something a lot of you know looking for extra money to fuel your hobbies. If only I could apply for SSI and neet moneys, but I honestly don't suffer from severe psychological "disorders," besides the usual aversion to people and introversion, and I'm a horrible liar so I don't think I could fake it either. Plus I think ones parents have to be in on the process, and I really wouldn't want them involved.

I'll also try to post more often on here, with progress of learning as evidence that I'll actually stick to this. So far my goal is applying everywhere, one online application a day, and as for Japanese review one chapter of Genki (the textbook our class used) a day, getting through the book in 12 days.

5 comments:

  1. >Working hard towards anything not video-game related is extremely difficult for me

    I know this feel all too well.

    I hope you'll be able to find a job soon, just apply to everything, but make sure the company is legit. There are a few "businesses" that are pretty much scams over here and they like to target people desperate for jobs.

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  2. That's good to hear about your plans, friend. Use your dreams as motivation, and don't forget them! Your three goals are adequate and realistic.

    >Working hard towards anything not video-game related is extremely difficult for me.

    Also know that feel ;_;

    Just try your best and start off slow; and don't be discouraged if things don't work out right away. I hope you'll manage to land a job as soon as possible. Keep us posted, and best of luck!

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  3. >Get a BA/BS degree in SOMETHING (it does not matter what, its all bullshit) as its required for pretty much any serious gig over there

    This seems to be the case and the hardest part of all. Good luck with Japanese studying for now.

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  4. You're pretty ambitious! Good luck & God speed :)

    Maybe you can be a Japanese teacher...?

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  5. >Working hard towards anything not video-game related is extremely difficult for me

    Dammit, I know this feel too. Just think about the benefits while working at it. It should help a bit.

    I hope you get far in your goals.

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